Who has friends? Most of us do. Good friends, bad friends, stupid friends, a small group of stupid friends or a large group of great friends. Either way, friends are in our lives day in day out. Somehow. Your friends are the only people you can have proper fun with, and just let loose and act like an idiot while loving it. But what if those friends are only in it for just that. You'd try to talk some sense into them about being a proper friend wouldn't you? I know i would, and i do. I'm free to express myself in any way that i possible could, yell at them to be good friends, cry so they'll feel sorry for me, kiss their feet and bribe them. There are many ways, maybe not as bizzare as suggested. But you can do it, right? No guaranteeing it will work, but you're more than welcome to do it and humiliate yourself. My friends seem like great friends dont they? They let me express myself as much as i like. Oh, sure they do. But theres always a catch. They cant care. its not that they dont care, its that they can't. I've learned that from my very wise mother and a lovely teacher at my school. They've showed me that everyone really is different. And the world is not a pretty place that serves you with good karma and even better friends. It may seem like i'm talking shit about them non stop. But I love them to bits, i really do. I just can't tell them things i would tell my boyfriend or my mother or some other friends I have. These guys make me happy when i'm around them, we have so much fun. But they don't seem to know that there is so so so much more to life than fun. And no, i will not "sit down and tell them how i feel" because that will make me look like a stupid melodramatic idiot. If you're getting pissed off at my rambling, then get pissed off and piss off. But if you wanna know, then keep reading. For the past week or so my brain has been on a constant low. My friends have been making me sad, and so has my boyfriend. Its not that my friends intentionally did anything to hurt me, they didnt betray me in any way or steal my boyfriend or something like that. They didnt do anything that friends would fight over. They just, didnt do anything, thats what makes me sad. If that makes sense. Them not doing anything makes me sad. There are a few people in particular who I wish to talk about. But i'm not going to.
Never take friendship seriously. Because there's always gonna be someone better than you. Someone who's been there for half a lifetime, when you've been there for a whole. Its not that they dont care, its that they can't. And we have to make it okay. Even though its not. We're way ahead of out time. Which isnt always a good thing. We have to live with being second best. We never should. Girls are heartless, boys are brainless. And sometimes we're all just brainless and heartless. Don't force intelligence down their throats. They can't take it. Ignorance really is bliss, and so convenient. As everything falls into place, it also falls apart. They're all laughing while they've hurt me. Not their problem, they just don't know what they haven't done, and they never will. Because they can't take intelligence. Some call it biophobia, to be nice. I'd rather call it stupidity or ignorance because of the way it makes me feel. Such a small place to go and hide from that. And no one else to turn to. Everyone has something better to do, or just upsets you when they try to turn to them. So nobody wins. Its a silent war unknown by the enemy. Immaturity wins, ironically enough.
till next time,
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